I Leave You With Still Beauty Tonight…

I have not posted in a little while; I have been shooting and working in Photoshop honing my skills, but in the last two weeks I have been pretty much brain fried.

You see we are short handed at work; I don’t mean down by one or two people short handed no, I am talking an entire team…ok well maybe not an entire team but after today there is one lone member left on one of the two teams that make up our department so yeah, almost an entire team. By the time I get home creative is gone, eyeballs’ are burning in sockets and brain is as I already said fried, fried, fried.

Its one thing to be “on” but when you’re “on, on” it’s mentally draining.

This picture makes me want to be in a peaceful place. I have been thinking more and more about the shore, the ocean, a beach but I have no shots to convey that image I have been conjuring up. I looked at this and it made me feel still.

I leave you with still beauty tonight.

Stand Tall…

Sway in the wind and roll with the punches

Stand tall in your confidence

Tattered and torn with battle scars to show

Stand tall in your beauty

Strike you down with words they will

Stand tall in your pride

Pull you down as you run up hill

Stand tall in your determination

Buzz Buzz a Bee

A busy bee’s life and some ant’s joined in too…if you look close.

The tulips are already blooming and soon the seeds will be planted for the sunflower fireworks display.

The mutant sunflower produced some insane blossoms last year

I hope I can replicate it this summer.

Coming Soon To a Neighborhood Near You

Spring rains, severe thunderstorms and tornado warnings.

Soon after  the constant warm weather rather than intermittent warm days. 

 The tulips are already poking their little green stems through the black mulch, and before you know it we will be sticking those sunflower seeds in the ground to see if I can replicate that mutant like stalk that grew last summer.

More to come.

Sadness Creeps IN

I knew someone that took their life last year, we shared family, loved ones that are hurting now in her absence. When I heard the news  I made this photo and wrote down a poem, you will find that at the bottom of this post.

I don’t get it, I can’t wrap my head around the level of sadness, loneliness, the utter feeling of defeat,  that there is no one to turn to, no one to understand and help makes sense of what is going on inside.

I do understand that there is something in every one, a level of strength. Some can go through anything without shedding a tear while others seem to lack the strength. Some how it was left out of their makeup, their composition when they were created. It’s no ones fault, I just wish there was a way we could know, know something that would alert us,  tell us, that someone we love feels this is the only answer.

I remember when she was born, I remember her mothers laugh, I would see her from time to time at family get togethers throughout the years, and  when I think of her gone, I can’t believe it, it hurts to imagine the pain. The pain she felt, the pain that is now left behind.  

Sadness creeps in

at what point does one let it take over So much

So much  that the weight of the rock on ones  shoulders crushes

That you chose to leave it behind

I cannot fathom the thoughts to bring a human to such despair

The Inspiration

Inspiration.

I am testing and trying new things, trying new things and testing.

Someday I wish to have a shiny, slick neat blog like all those crisp, organized polished versions out there.

It will bring you things I see, feel, taste, things that inspire me

And  some day this will be the thing I do, this photography.

It will bring me great joy,  it will create the way for me to test and try new things and try new things and test…all the time.